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Romances for String - Second Romance Section 3

Abschied

Do not fear
Watchers on the Storm
Waiters on the slowly widening Threshold
These will not wait
The world becomes my home and hearth
I cannot feel alone…
Have no fear for me
I do not fear
The future will unfold
In my peculiar Sight
There is room for me
In the great Antipodean Bight.

17.02.07
Heidelberg

58

Were numbered strong
When let the quick birds flew,

My strength has proved enough
To see the morning of the New!

It was not enough
To count my blessings true
I had help enough
This Life was hard enough
To see my drowning in the Slough.

I am aloft again
From that peculiar Dream
Which saw me dreamless
Upon a deep Empyrean.
Where do I go? What will now await me
This, I cannot sayö
Altestier will hold a most ungainly sway.

26.02.07
Frankfurt
Abreise

As I fly

And this is how our consciences are wise.
Through blind adherence to a law we do not honor
Chastened by a king we did not choose
Children are at place in the precincts of His power,
Claiming rights by gold they do not pay.

How orderly our deeds are made,
Made true, attendant on the ones who wait
Unshorn
I cannot say what causes them to wait
But that I remain alone
As ever from the vigilance of Morning
For my sake, and for my Love, he would not wait,
And so, the Numen wakes the Sun to morn
And so I fly, alive and trembling,
Soon alone,
To greet the promise of the Shorn.
The morrow will surely sound a harsher Horn
Her time grows short
Attendant on the rising Tide,
And I am safe.

26.02.07
American Consulate
Frankfurt

The Rush Toward the Wait

I bide my time,
Fearful of my sleep
Lest I be lost
Unable to return the greater Cost
There is much done, and too much
Left to do.
I must be patient
And be calm
Unheralded and balmedö
I have not wept today
For the ignorance of Lies
The lies have been accumulate
Their pale illusion dies
And as the Liars meet their fate
I will remain appalled.

26.02.02

The Weary Hours

Is this why Paradise remains unplundered
By the hosts unworthy who will not cross that Gulf?
I was weary long before that Day,
When Rubicon and Time were crossed,
Giving service to the forgotten
Who are right nearby and worthy.

I go to make a place
This pilgrimage, a rescue
Of a most peculiar kind.
Will I find in my own tongue
(and not)
The courage of Initiate
To speak the word of Wisdom on the way?

22.02.07
over Siberia

Gold Coast

An easy yoke, this Summer,
In the heart of winter
As winter rages newborn,
I am exile to that which I call Home
And Altestier, my inspiration and my bane,
And where shall I go,
As Winter heralds soon the fast-approaching Summer,
Thus as Autumn starts to mourn,
I am reborn
The sooner to return, a Golden storm.

28.02.07
Over the Indian Ocean

The prophecy is complete:
I lay dreaming
While the Spring and Summer flee,
And for it is approaching, the exact moment
The 28th
Of the last day,
Of July.
2 + 6 = 8

But they came too early.

My trip to Australia is told symbolically by the final movement of the Mad Composer. What happened to the Winter and Spring
And autumn may yet follow,
Leaving only Summer.
A prediction of moving from the winter to the summer. And back again. I am reordering my incarnation.

Even my desire to return to Germany is symbolic of my last life and this one. And I know now, what will happen. They will beg me to stay.
I cannot stay
I will not stay
The Winter will upon me
YET AGAIN.

I have blown a lot of ballast of sorrow, pain and anger on this voyage and my Light is pellucid. Let all the Light be lucid on the Lake.

A Prophecy

As seven were the Keepers of the Key
So the twelve in conscience are the Tree.
We laid our rows in row, and came to Be.
These seven are the companions of the History to come,
Awake to Light and Life
And all that was degree
Seven are the stand for all who See.

Over the Northwest Territory
28.02.07

And I woke

Too soon to be united to my yoke
I am befriended, by the Allgemein
My friends are nearer to me now
Than ere I spoke.
We are not far
Across the pole, the world is rounder in its rhythm
Than I knew
It may be I thrive,
With tropics to the north of me,
Surprised,
I am quite near
No longer waiting for the
Late to wake the day,
I am tomorrow to their lately-risen day.

In tomorrow
8.03.07
Toorak

Where have you gone

My love,
My enemy rechastened?
Why have you not answered
In the silence of his loss?
You have forgotten me
And all I represent
I am a Force, a cloud
The weather
Something to be shut beyond the door.
It will be so
For lo these many lives and years to come
Will you not wake to realize
The light you can become?
He is not the carrier,
The husband
Or your slave,
What kind of grief
Will conquer you,
When he defeats the grave?

You will be left – with me.
The whispering of spirit
In the oldest, ancient Tree
You will lose the least of him
That I would rarely see
But that is all the lesson
You may change
This is the harder lesson to be won
Has he suffered prettily enough
To make your pride be stung?

Compassion is misplaced
As you rush to reassure yourself
Of all he gives mundanely
Is not of him, but us.
All he wanted
Was for you to heal and grow
It is not for me to tell
It is for you to know,

On this, I can now speak
For had I better heeded
We would not have this peak,
Who is to say?
When wakening might come
Who was to say, for me?
I cannot shelter you.
No more can he.
I cannot chasten you:
No more – will he.

08.03.07
Parliament

Folk Song

Kookaburra sits in the old gum tree
Merry as the knights of the Temple, three
Laugh kookaburra
Laugh kookaburra
You won’t question Me.

I had not known
Heretofore,
Or had I known?
The power of the Prophet
In the guise of simple screed?
He comes,
I am his Messenger,
He comes.

10.03.07
Ashburton

Look at the Time

Oh Fame
That I had so many times
Offended Thee.
My sweet William, lying naked in the grass with me,
Surrendering all day
All night,
Deliciously,
We were so proud of what our lover’s language grew
He plucked me until I could not grow anew.

And now, now look at the Time
I sink into the empty bed
I rendered blank of you,
I did my worst
To You.

So why do you forgive,
Return to blight my morning
With the promise of Your love
Your light
Your hope
The greatest of the noble light that will not dim
Then why
Do I remain
Afraid of you?

For WSB
In the field

alex £ς

Ashes to Ashes

Äsch,

No one knew this word
This play
This Arsch
The Article
Der Crych

They believed
The Kreis was Treu.
They believed
The Weiß was Gnu.
They believed

That I was you!

for the mysterious Fraülein
that was no girl.

äsch

13.03.07

But Why

Was I silent on your name?
Was it because I knew
That when you woke
O, dearest
It would be with harrowing and pain?
Again, though I will leave you oft,
I leave you ne`er again,
I will not leave
The Waste that Spite
Has rained.

for the sweet William,
the sweeter to be found unripe,
Unripe
13.03.07
ALEX

August 2006 London

The day before my world collapsed
That was the day
I saw you naked to the soul
And did not fear.
Yet something hid remained,
And made me fear
Something beautiful
And sex, and horror
Something luscious and new-ripe
Slender and insidious
And wedged between my life
And I dared not
Dared not!
Nurture it to Strife.

13.03.07


For the Few

Are numbered on my hands
Unspoken
Unpronounced
Before the New
I spoke the word of wakening
Long before the words of love,
Aborning on your lips

What is this Word
Mistrusted,
My body misAligned,
My reputation, missMaligned,
For this, will my Destiny
My Conquered
and my Conquerer
Conquer me again,
Because I shrink from you?

for WSB
Darling Corner
13.03.07

The D Minor

We could swear
We were borne into the Air
Through the mystery of Lightning
And of Rain
We shone
Jealously appalled
The lover that I count so lately Galled.

She flies,
Into the night that wakes the Day
She fast approaches Night

In Sincerity, her Self to Night is host
In obscurity, I labor for the Most,
And in whispering the words of Passion
I am rendered Holy, Ghost
The Passionate, the Fame is want to Play.

14.03.07
Richmond

Oh Sweet

The sweetest nectar
I had tasted
On your lips,
You took my taste,
My wine,
You drank me as a drunkard savors wine,
Catching lust in droplets on your tongue,

I am rendered Passionate
While you are captured young,

Oh sweet, my captive,
Oh my devilish Elite,
Scholarly, you strip me nude
For passion’s play,
Manacled in jewels,
You deny me night and day

Drink of me,
You profligate
I have libation ready for your mouth,

We are childish,
Amused,
Too depraved to conquer Day.

For Sweetwilliam in his discipline.

14-03-07

Conquered, Twice

My Romance was silenced
And I paid this price
But was this word of wakening
This passion, hot between my thighs
The purpose of my newly-wounded wife?
She, she, she would have me force her down
In making love
She makes me rude in love.

I am slain by tenderness
The softest pleading of her mouth
I will not deny her pleas
I will give to her on elbows
I will bend to her on knees,
Taste the sweet that labored
For my pleasure
Forget the labor
That was every day
Awaiting me, awaiting me
Make me love you, Love,
Make me turn away.

14.03.07

She chastens Me

To sleep.
O Sleep
Harbinger of Wakening to Day
Sensitive and bending me beneath
Her tender sway,
She did come to me,
She left me watch
And long I watched, alone
Unspoken-to,
Dreaming time and courage to be New.

And now,
My Chief agrees
I wait until the Summer breaches Lea
I wait, tourist,
Casual,
I will not flee from Thee.

This place is warm, and beautiful
And comforts me,
These people, guileless
Unbroken by the distances
We three,
And soon, soon,
Soon, I see.
The Brief will fulfill
His worried prophecy.

15.03.07
Burnley and points east

Cure for the Glare

Oh my dear!
When the Brief has chastened me
And chastised me
And wandered far from me,
And I would glare,
You want me then to think of you –
Abend within our lair?
How could you say
How, how indeed,
Do I explain
That glare that conquers anger
And leaves me clutching Air?

The Day Before Tomorrow
(With sweetness)

My Sweet
My Süss
The süßer to be fallen
On my Küß
I cleaved to Thee
Erotic in my passive lust
I bled the white
From out my pores,
Delight,
From out my Loins
The Right
From all my Lores.

From ₤ a

to W
17-03-07 (16)

A Mighty Fortress Is Our…

A rude and intimate obscenity,
I was obscene, and impolite the quicker to be mean to mean,
I sang profanity into your buzzing ear
The Song, unsung, yet spoken
The concupiscence of Youth
Could not explain
The excess of bizarre
I dare not speak the poetries
Of John
Of Jack
UnWonne
The secret of the two Jacks
That did not make a Queen
That did not make a Pawn.

Concupiscent

P.S. This was the secret of 2 Jacks divided by 69.

Who, you ask

Can I answer this today?
How many mysteries dare I yet reveal?
How much can Wisdom
Ground to Land,
I am used to these,
My Poet,
I am used to spreading
Loaves, like dying leaves.

J.M.
On the Secret
Not revealed
16.03.07.
1629 in Love
In.
Love.


I, John

A lover undeclared
A blind and horrid Poet
Love unspared,
Pursuing skirts before the Dark descends,
The Dark descended
Ere my poem of Hell
Up
End.

The End
J.M. 1671
Cheltenham

Concupiscence

He is brief
Brightly feminine in masculinity
Geliebte for Geliebt
I felt him more
I felt his hot desire prove
The error of his ways
I did not know that out of yoke
This arrogant in Mind
Oh so like my former Fame,
Would be so disobedient
So passive in their Plain
He is the submissive and the broken,
I am by his side, by contrast whole,
Who has piqued his pleasure
This I wonder…
Is the Flying Dutchman
Far too sprool to spray?

16.03.07

The Changing of the Time

The Timing of our Tide
As long I had predicted
I knew of Johannes long before she Woke,
When I was not in Rothenburg
In June, and then in Bööt
This, this song, this Anabasis
Is today my passion play…
His death has been averted,
And again,
I find my Way.

On the coming of the Great Strife,
16.11.07

Süsser

Oh wachte auf, mein Leiber
Mein Geliebt
In Form also Frau ich kann nicht änderen,
Bist so süss, mein Süsser
Warte mal, warte noch eine Stunde mehr für mich,

Lieber! Komm an mir
Kuss mich auf den Hand
Mein Brust ist abgerissen
Mein Herz ist fast zerstört.

16.03.07
an W.

Verrückt beim Arbeit

Hat der Femme
Hat der Komponist der stirbt
Zusammen bittet, Liebe mich,
Sagt mal! Liebe dich!
Ich mach’ Entschuldigungen
Immer habe ich nochmal nach und nach
Bei Bedarf entschuldigt würde,
Zu viel Spaß beim Arbeit
Hat der Komponist erfasst.
Er ist too Fast.

u.
u.
U
Riel in Ruhe

16.03.07
RS

Oh Süss

The morning when I did not sleep, but lay with you,
Transit through today, to yesterday
My sweetness, sharing eros in our most peculiar way,
Sharing pleasure, weeping for the Time,
It is time to wake, my Jack of Hearts,
It is time for the soft embrace of hours,
Hours did we lay together, wounded
Can we heal each other, slowly
In the watches of the Night
I want your body on my own
I want your kiss, your swet
On my hot tongue,
I will miss you every hour
My unDonne.

17.03.07
Ormond

Bearing the Southern Cross

Tell me, sweetling,
If the North Star remains to shine
To guide the Hyperborean
Returning to the Land

You have founded on my Land
Returned to me, while I sit in exile
On a foreign, desert Strand
When will I see your star-enlivened visage in my eyes,
When will I again see Northern skies?

18.03.07
Melbourne


Breckt

Wirklich, ich lebe in finsteren Zeiten;

Truly, I live in dark times,
I am tested and testing
The mettle of my Feind,
The southern reaches of my Clime
The exile of a most peculiar Rime.

And…

I write
My sweetness is to me delayed
Sacrified and staid
When will I see your sweet face
Your flushed and anxious countenance
Your shine.
I am not within the ray
Of your effulgent sun
And I am blind.

18.03.07
Melbourne

I Sense

A fear of Night,
The storm and hurricane
The Rift grows wide and yawnsö
It is a time for Prophecy
For symbol and for fear
It is the Metal taste at end of year.

I am safe
Versteckt
Retraced,
Occupied by music and the powers of the mind
I have all I ever needed, yet I pine.

It is not the time, the place of Star
Stars are fast unseen but felt
The differences, bizarre.

18.03.07
Melbourne

The Importance of Being Dead ErnЄst

Because I lingered over you and your plea,
I missed my train
There would be no poem today if I not sit,
Until a mercy came to me
Women are so delicate
You see,
But no one really would
Believe this plaint of me.

For I am cold,
Unfeeling, unreceptive to the bold,
If I do not respond in kind
Then I am lost and fold
This is consequence
Of being bright and cold.

And none will heed the desperate
Those who break and bleed
This the paradox of wealth
The Politics of need,
They will simply stare, as sheep,
As I shiver on the Screed.
And even you, my sweetling,
When I have nothing to my name,
But need,
Do you think I am indulgent in my poverty
Obsessive in my creed?
I bend to you my broken back,
I kneel on broken knees
I walk these miles on broken soles
I weep with blinded eyes

I fear with emptied breath
The watches of the Night
I fear your bad opinion
And I want to smile bright.
Will this be believed?
You doubt.
And even you
Will doubt.

19.03.07

Elf June and the Junes

I have no caress for her,
And thus am tossed,
She is of a bolder form of tree
Demanding in her motherhood
Selfish in her need
This is the June I lost to selfish need.

The world is too much with me,
Late, and soon,
These women want the worst of me
And I would flee the moon,
I cannot flee
The Concupiscent
Awaits,
He turns from me.

19.03.07

I would be gracious

If I did not fear
Invulnerable, aggressive
The very face of power
But I am weak and conquered
By the plenitude of lust
I will be taken soon
And spent into the dust.

19.03.07
For apologies to Süsser

My Place is Empty

To be filled by bitter men
I am not so shocked to be replaced
You will replace me
I am sore,
I have a very cold allure.

19.03.07

This Night

I have been re-proved
I am unafraid, unmoved
We give way to Lore
My Love is bright with passion
And with pain;
She worries me, she worries
All of us because she loves.

I am piqued with jealous rage,
One’s momentary indiscretions
But will I admit
The pleasure of my male mortality,
My passion in my pain
These women, near to me
Who yearn to touch
The thing they cannot see
Oh Sweetling, whose kiss is soft and feminine,
Whose touch is brisk and masculine,
I yearn for this
His mouth on mine
His flesh inside of mine,
This I dream, all night, all day… all night
He wakes the passion of my body with his Light
Oh dearest friend
Do you forgive me
For my quarrels and my tears
For my humiliation of your ignorance
Your endurances of mind

Do you forgive me, Lieber
For that is what I need
The touch of Light upon my face
To bring to light my need,
Who could love such a one as me?
Who would refrain,
From crippling my Lea?

19.03.07

I am wretched

When obscured by tougher feminines
I was shocked by these aggressor women
Who would draw me down to pain
I trust but little
And panic at the fear
I am both rock and water
Tensile, rough and steel,

Love me softly, Lieber
Contain me in your arms
Captivate my light, my love
Conciliate my charms

For I am cold
Shivering and lonely
Yet am bold.
This is the paradox, the puzzle of my life,
That I am both hot
And cold.

19.03.07

Süsser

Did we talk
Long into the night together,
I can hear you better
From this curve of Earth
West of me, as normal to the Lea.

I must remain unwed
Carillon to those who wait, unborn
Unmysteried to Fate
My self unlocks the Secret
Of the Sexualities
I pray
That I am not too late.

20.03.07
Melbourne

A Modest Proposition

Is this too much to ask, my Sweet
To live with me and be my love
To abide with me in passion`s sleep
To watch with me an hour?

The Watchers are a lonely clan
And ripe, they wait on me
To hear the word of wakening
To swoop down on the Lea,

I am their king,
And yet they will not kneel to me;
I am their judge and yet,
They appeal to worse than Me.

This is no surprise
The Nephilim were never very Weise.

Equinox. Dawn
Darling Station

Splendor in the Glass

This pain caused by none other
Than the Mystery
Suspected by the few
Yet ever ripe and plain
Is the reflection of the New
The harrying, the emptiness
Of the lately risen Few

We could be Great
And Wise
And New
We could be those ranks of Stalwarts
Holding Fast to You.

I forswore my riches
For the dearer wealth of She
I will recompense
The frightened
For his sacrifice.

For Christine
Equinox

Enough


It proves to be enough
Though Ignorance has sent a bill
It cannot be again so rough
For such a one as She.
Each has his strength
And weakness
Each has their fall and rise.

They are not expected
To be Reis.

12.03.07
For the Three

But What of you,

My lately loving Angel
My Nightingale, my love,
Who touches me with tenderness
Where most would bid me bleed

They revel in the Cost
That makes me need,
They are cold and rudderless as vehicles
They will ever bid me bleed.

Look away, do not be grieved
Nothing of this remains to make me peeved,
I am with you, I will not stray
Sex holds little power over me today.

For L.s

21.03.07

We are Fast, Asleep

Wary, do we circle one another
Upon the Storm, She is ever night
When I am morn,
Tis better for us now
As when our souls were borne,
My love is flying back into the morn.

She was exposed,
Enlightened by my lately blooming Rose,
Our incidental days of idleness
Gave way to passion’s fight
We labored toward the love
Within our light.

And now, we climb
No more alone, our souls are now entwined,
I am beloved
As ne’er I hoped nor dreamed,
I swore I would remain aloof,
Alone.

I fantasize our rough tomorrows
The delicious lessons of the hours to come,
The making of our love, in light
The sparking passion of our beauty bright,
The declaration of the New…
Could I be a part of merely Two?

Did I dare dream? No.
I had forever lost my Love
My shadow and my shade,
The partner of my empty loss
My partner unsaid,
She is lost, and lost,
Until the morrow of her Maid.

Will I be free
To love you reacquainted?
Will I feel mere joy in your regard
Can I believe, after these long years
Of countenancing strife
That I will once be wedded to the All?

I cannot say, this new surprise
Has burned my mind to dazed,
Why have you come to me
Why do you pledge me troth?
I am unworthy, cold,
Bereaved,
A widower, without the will to grieve.

For WsB
In Equinox
22.03.07
Melbourne

Bear with me a season

This is my Autumn
As your Spring
Bear with me a season, Liebling
While I weep
For I cannot love you faithfully today,
But only that the shadow that has dogged me
Turns from Light, away,

This goodness, Love
That watches me by night, your Day,
Protects me from the shadow’s dogged sway.

She will rise again
But when, I could not say.
She is dark, unholy
And imprisoned in the Country of her mind,
She cannot be mine today.

And so, I grieved.
For centuries, through madness
And through pain,
So I grieved
But stubbornly persisted in my lost belief,
For my father said: “Believe.”
And that is why I stubbornly
Believed.

He is not wrong, this way
That she must prove him wrong
So bear with me
As the Messiach and all his faithful few
Regather for Pesach
My sacrifice of faith is counted, too.

Bear with me, beloved
While I weep.
As the world grows dark with self-made strife
The clock reverses sleep
You know I live, and weeping, strive,
And I am not asleep
There is permitted, my extreme desire
All I wish
Is countenanced, and meet.

To Ln
On the Lea
26.03.07
Melbourne

Corrections to the Text

‘Razor Boy’
Apologies to Becker and Fagen

You know that the coming is already planned
You wait all night
I don’t think that women in rages can stand
His kind of light

I guess only women in rages can play up
The things they knew
They think no tomorrow will come
When they stay up
They won’t be used

Will you still have a song to sing
When the Razor Boy comes
To take your precious things away?
Will you still be singing it
On that cold and windy day?

26 Mar
Melbourne

Misunderstanding Anderson

Apologies to Ian Anderson
Requiescet in Pacem

Sitting on a bus bench
Nine little girls
With satin tents
Tears running down their nose
Picking up pieces of their Cross and Rose


Crying in the cold sun
Watching as the checkered path is run
Old Elder Ron

Feeling alone
An old man wandering lonely
Making time the only way he knows
Elder Ron my friend
Don’t you start away uneasy
You poor old slob
You see it’s only Me.

A caution to the ARC
26.03.07
Melbourne

Oh Love

The Night has black become
And I shiver now with cold
I must force your eye away
Ere you become too bold
I am enchained
In service to the Darkness
As the Darkness doth unfold
Do not hinder me
Or I am lost
Do not intrude upon the banks
Of Press and Commerce
I cannot be Frost

The winnowing is soon
Unleashed by Proprium of Wien
The Steiermarkerin is rendered
Hot and Feind,
There are those who will hate me now
For loving you
They will turn their hearts from me
But I am not afraid,
But do not hold me from this ungodly work
Lest I be Payed.

27.03.07
Melbourne

Eclipsed from Trost

I pray for these great gifts
My mind is fragile
And engulfed in sin
I am afraid and rattled
By the bursting out of pain
I will shiver coldly,
Ere I sleep again.

Upon the curious Eclipse

Bad Moon Over Miami

There’s a bad moon rising
There’s trouble in Detroit
There’s money enterprising
Soon the bakers will be Caught.

(apologies to Creedence)

28 Mar 07

Terrible nightmare this morning. About Dotty and Linda, and at the end of the nightmare, Dotty was speeding off in a car with a group of people, leaving me at an empty table at a restaurant, and I stood at the side of her car after rushing out after her and drawing up along side it.

As she drove off I raised both hands to shout to her ‘It hurts the most that you treat me as if I never existed.’ And she drove off with them. Linda dared not look back. Edwin bowed his head, and did not look back. And Dotty’s face was frozen, unspeaking. A stranger drove the car. When I woke, my arm was bruised down the inner arm, and I was dazed.

Babylon’s Sisters

I whispered my confession
Into your willing ear
Oh Love
That you would bend your mind
To hear;
Mine is the sad and desperate tale
Of One who does not sleep
Unrewarded and unraveled
By the One whose secrets keep

This torment, Love,
This present pain
Is tempered by the friends that I have unforgotten
The strong, the true, the Allgemein
The men I always knew
Companions of my endless work with you.

The future will unfold
Definitely consonant and cold,
Our future guides our steps
Upon the Way
We are met and equals
And our genius life holds sway.
Do not forget me, Süsser,
As I cavort and play,
I know my revelations are of pain,
But when will I be healed
If not for you
And this sweet splendor in the Glass
We are of old, Beloved,
We are of Uriel and Light
And strike out, cold.

For Leslie
The true companion
Of the present day

29.03.07

What of you

Salesman of the Sold,
Bureaucratic emptiness
Fearful, hot, and cold?

Did I reflect too powerfully
The note that was E flat of you
And east of pot
And gold ?

For SH

29.03.07

The Mother of my Sons

This is what I am
So do not despair
That I must keep apart, alone
It is well
That my kind are kept
Indifferent to the lesser light that swells,

Do not pity
One who weeps for the crushing out
Of this my tiny candle
I cannot be quelled
I have returned to you
To reveal this in my Selves,

You are not merely
The mother of my sons
The nurturer in white
Who bears my arm
You are more than this, my dear
You are the nightingale
Who bore me all these years.

For the one who has awakened.

£

The Test of Coldness

Is the laying out of squares
To measure with the cold retreat of mercy
There is no mercy in your mechanic grin
There is no exit
For the way you ply your sin.

For the Schöner

Sleep

Protector of my kind
The guard of drunken waywards
And of dreams
I bleed in such exhaustion
Such despair
Soon will come
The step upon the stair.

30.03.07

Oh Kinder

Ihr liebtete
In Ruh
Zwischen Liebe und Leben
Selge Ruh
Meine Lieblings, alle solch’ beliebte
Erinnert mir,

ich Frage
Zwischen Biene und den Rhein
Hönig-süss war unser Leben
Zusammen spielten Wir
Zukunftlich Spaß.

Sei Froh, mein Ferdinand
Mit Kunst und Liebe
Meine Nähste Kinde
Sei die Beide, Ludwig und der Felix
Auf dem Strand
Ich habe Ihr alle in mein Herz
Ensteht
Heute haben die Wölke weg von Uns
Gefliegt.

Vom Papa
2007 April
nach dem Wach.

Look,

Lieber
What your love of me
Has wrought
Look at how my conscious life enshrines
Look further for the life of those denied,
Look at what my little bait
Has caught.

8.04.07
For Le(a)

Bacon for Pesach

The Ellus Cohens
Are seated for the Feast
Let all the Host
Be chastened
By their Beast

Give one small Schwein
As sacrifice to Azazel
A credit to their place

I cannot say my people
Are such a stiff-necked race.

For Leor and the Samuels
And the Cohens Elus
Pesach
Nightfall

aCaCel

Lea(n) on Me

When I am strong
I am the Host now worthy
To be blest
I am worth a sacrifice
To make of me my best
I am safe today
The religion of the Elder time
Is holding sway.

02.04.07
Un the Don

The Night

That released all the Unknowing
Spent with You, my angel on the Lea,
We have confirmed, by sacrifice
The ordering of Three,
The day of your rebirth
Is horror for the many sent away,
But Love,
Do not be sad today.

We are as OneWe are together
And approach the Holy One.
Do not fear
My inconstancy
My chastening is made complete
My suffering
Reminds the many
On my Feet.

14.04.07
Ormond

The Color of My Love

Cannot be measured by the eye
It is empassioned
Spoken by the beauties
Of your Skye,
You are rest and sleep to me
My love,
You are the sound of merriment
And song
How can I quell the sound of Life
With such a poor wrought metaphor
Of Lies…?

For Lies,
On the storm,
Autumn

18.04.07

The Boy

Awaits me at my gate
He is dressed and solemn
And takes the key to state.
These are allegory,
Metaphor
My song is much too late
The boy will bring the islands
To the Straight.

For Adam M.
18.04.07

The Lehrerin

Awaited me
Encouragingly bright
She is a key to Light and Love
The produce of my Slight,
She will ease my mind
She is of the old and German kind.

For Anne Dehne
18.04.07

4 the Beauty of the Earth

And morning dawned
The merciful, awake, awaiting me,
My sons, sincere
Are dispatched to the Storm,
My suffering will end
By Monday morn.

I did not dream
This glorious moment of redemption
Although in symbol
All is clear by threes,
We did not have the All at our command
When hindered by our rough
Uncertain Peas.

But, it is alone
At length
At last
My tribute lies
All bounty at Thy feet
Our sacrifice is very late,
But meet.

For the Two
19 04.07
Middle Park,
Dawn

999 at 940

The clock said twenty-two,
The light arose before the Light declined,
Our hemispheres were bound by Cross, and Rose,
There is no pity left in me for these,
The willfully impatient
Who sought to bring me to my knees,
There is no fleshly punishment
To make my pity plead,
There is no charity in me for these.

And by the soft embrace of she
Who will not be denied,
The Light of grace, my Nightingale
Surprise,
She will have all of me
With night arrayed
If she but asks
My love will not be swayed.

I do not fear you
Mothers of my sons,
I no longer quake before your scorn,
I cannot be held
For she has rescued me
From my benighted shore
Her evening is the dawn of every morn.

Do not fear the judgement of the Kind,
He is far too merciful
And Ye are much too blind
Your Lies are ended, lest you
Tarry long within the country of the Mind
Be restored into the country of the Kind.

For you are mine, Unworthy,
And worthy to be judged as Wrong,
I am not vulnerable to you
Benign and seen neglect,
I am not so often wrong.

Today, I do not fear
The eye of the Needle has been threated
And my nails have all been pulled
There will be no harsher April
Than this season of the Bull.

If I seem unkind
Remember
I was once the king who wandered,
Blind.

19.04.07
CBD
Upon the final sacrifice
Of Pesach

Desist

You children of the lesser Fall
A false, untidy Autumn has descended
Dark with blood and gall
I have fallen into hands iniquitous
And debt is fallen due;
All I’m owed, is owed to Him and You.

The ordering of Three is made
And found as worthy
The iniquitous must now be quit
And repeat their Wind

I weep, with a father’s late regret
To bring the Fall again in Bast and Set.

There are too many goats to count for Azazel
As the Clock grows early late,
Too many have this morning fallen
Too many more are written on the slate.

How much should I endure for thee
Oh Massiach
How has my time been run and ended?
We are counted few
Too few
To be measured as unworthy
Too few of children
To found this tiny State.

For the Three

28 04 07
St. Kilda

The Repentance of Azazel

My tears are the confusion of my age,
My light is buried, random
In the Bushels and the Trees,
I have lost my home, my Allgemein,
My All,
Another death is nothing
To the Gaul.

28-04-07
Awaiting Him

The World Has Come Undone

And not by any of my choosing
I had long since felt the craving for the New
Had they been left alone too long
Or were there Masters few?
I dared not offend the lights
Who now hold sway
Their striving was enough
To be born into this way
The turning earth itself
Is a disruption of my way.
And so, I turn
From eyes forced closed against
The alien night
Their stars are much too few
Their nebulae, too bright,
How did I knw the child of the Hyperborean
Was much too North to stay
I am far more wise, today.
And so, I turn,
Awaiting at the tropic
For the blessed Force to churn
I am an anticlockwise Light
But cannot force myself against
This conquest of the Night.

03 05 07
Enroute
Hong Kong

The Devil You Know

Is blackened with the taint of old regret
Scourged by circumstance, neglected by the two and scorned by three
Unforgotten by the One who makes Degree
This is Rosenkreutz and Guildenstern’s decree
Number one among us who
Unspent, unspending
Frugal in their ways,
Intent on knowing that the God is good, and stays;
Number those among us
Who can not afford to craze.
As for the rest
This is the form from which the Future sounds,
This is the true Beginning of another round.

03.05.07

Oh Sweetness

What gratitude to you is best conveyed
In song, in story, or in my conscience
By the blessing and the guidance of my father am I saved,
I was never left alone to bleed
From cruel and fervent needs
Of those who grew the gardens
Of the choking thistle trees.

05 03 07
over Alice Springs

The Storm Abates

As I make my long return
Bathed in light, the angels of my salvation’s sight
The youths, the elders of another realm,
Another holy Light
I wait the crossing of the deep
And carvernous Abyss
That place of Exile where my echo is amiss,
The vehicle of Light is in the Kris.

03 05 07

We two

Peculiar in the present shape
And unconvinced by Proprium or Grace
The moment of our Truth will be complete
We have sandals on our cold and weary feet.

05 03 07
On nearing the Trench


My Dearest

We have held each other close this night
These many nights
Our intimacy unbounded by the space
Between our bodies
Intently clinging as was meet
But this known,
Your love of me is in every moment, shown
There is no secret here
Nor fallacy of bodies or of troths
You are mine, as I am yours
And that will never change
Our love to others
Will seem forever strange.

04 05 07

The Profligate

Of old, my monster and my bane
Has bid me go and now return again
To the place as old as ancestry
The deep tradition I neglect for yesteryear
The power that was never mine to hold
I return by force and sad decree
I cannot be chastened
For the timing of this day
It is chosen by the mightiest of old.

04 05 07
over Atlantic

I Ached

For freedom from those bonds
For suffering beyond my new imagining
For loss and grief I had not known
Before the Warden put his hand upon my brow;
I wept, my darling
Ere my longing to be home
Had I truly wandered all the earth
To find myself alone?
What have I done to set my world awrong?
To lay all force in contravention to decree,
And what choice had I, that fateful day
Could I have known
That all my efforts were in vain?
This, I do not know
But wait for what unfolds,
What will rebeginning bring to me
In reklindling my source
It is my seventeenth year
Again, in grace, by grace revived,
And yet again, by You and He
I am by Grace, revived.

For Leslie
04 05 07

The Boston Rag

Any news was good news
And the feeling was bad at home
I was out of my mind
And U were on the phone.

No more will I be wanting
As I kneel before Thy throne
I am She, and holy,
And I come to claim my home.

04 05 07

The Life of Autumn

Alas, with the surfeit of this spring,
The Spring becomes my Autumn
Sweetly sad, refused too late,
My consciousness as reawaked,
Too late

So the life of Autumn is the rule
My cold and solitary path
The rude exception,
She will ever seek the lower life unfold,
I will ever weep
And then grow cold.

For WsB
In pain

27 05 07

My Dear

There will be those
Who will hate me for loving you,
Are you one of these?

Is my love measured
In the flesh that seeks to close
Over that intrusive touch
You will not see?

I weep, I cannot explain
Without the word of wisdom
Or the power of my Prose
I would inspire you
If you would draw me close
I wonder now
In solitude
In rain
Is this the mere beginning
Of my pain?

27 05 07

Take heart

My dear
If only you knew
The strange
The emptiness
The longing in my heart
For all of Light and Life
And you,
It remains for us
For you
It waits
It will wait forever
If you remain with me
And true.

L

Pensively

In silence
On the cusp of sleep
I heard myself cry out
In pain, in terror of the old,
My memory of torment
And of coldö

I consider these lush forests
And the cleanliness of June
Renewal of the Spring
Escaped from Autumn,

I have had no summer yet
But Autumn comes yet twice (thrice?)
In my peculiar year
Prophesied when I had crossed the sacred threshold,
Now I am ambassador
To those who wait and mold,
Their conceits too modst
For the Work we must unfold

This dim and candlelighted gloom
Aglow with subtle light
Here again, as once before
I sensed a peace enduring
Here again, as never before
I carry one small spark
That is my hope.

Oh sweet, my love of yesterday
That bright jewel of Music
My sweet boy,
Do not be lost or misdirected
By discovering yourself
Do not mistake the spark of lust
For joy
There is so much unspoken
And to be discovered on the Way.

Who will find the peace of sanctity
The welcoming of Light
Of Life
The comfort of Our Love?
I hope, I pray, and gain again
My late sobriety,
I beg of God
To let you stay...
I ask in tears, again
On broken knees
Do not turn me now away.
The time is ripe,
So stay.

To the soul of Autumn
01 06 07
Johannes Kelpius Lodge, Boston

Whether

I am kind or cruel
Or sweetness
And the soul of discretion has adorned me
Depends upon the wisdom that I choose,
The bright jewel
Or simple dross,
But never can I turn my eye away
In passion or in pain
I am never indifferent
To the tears upon your face
Your sorrow ever roots me to my place.

For my sweet

04 06 07

The Pain

I see in your blue eyes
Belies the guilt I feel
Why do I bear guilt for you, who so calmly
Broke my seal?
I was aloof, and cold
For all these many years
My Love had been quiescent in my soul,
I promised I was not meant for rages
Of a passion uncontrolled.
Yet I could not remain that cold.

Oh William, who was so fierce
In conquest and in rage
I loved you then without discretion
And as I loved you
Waxed and grew, in sorrow,
More enraged.
You did not belong to me, and yet
We were engaged.
Wedded to a passion passing strange.

A flood of artless notes is my excuse
A cadenza may yet sound apology
But I must not stoke the passion
That provoked your passion’s rage,
I must find the note upon this page.

For WsB
In LhN

10 06 07

True

Am I sorrowful enough
To be more true
Am I loyal to the soul
That is the best of you?

Can we start again
On the carriage road to Leipzig
Toward the new?
This I cannot say
I bled a life’s regret
In your weeping, hollow eyes
What music has been lost
In my reprise?

I must be true
In my late respent resolve
I must be stern and disciplined
And undissolved,
And I will love you once again
In my peculiar way
That doesn’t feel like quite enough,
Today.

10 06 07

I slowed

I was in the depth of grief
Until I slowed.
I reached the height of fury
And my will remained uncowed
And my wisdom was enough,
Until I slowed.

And then,
There was no time
The clock remained quiescent
To the rhyme
I did the only duty
I could now have performed
And now my wisdom
Is by Life, transformed.

It was the hateful year
Of passing pain
Wherein we met
A lesson more than living
And of countless cold regrets
It was the year that ended
By my Bet.

I found the love I lost through sheer regret,
The tragedy, that we were too early met,
By circumstance, by curiosity, by rain
When we meet in future
We should not bear this wretched emptiness and pain.
I cannot bid you go
I must relent
And in refraining, grow
I could drown all over
Once again, from pain
But Dearest
We must not fail, again.

10 June 07
for Hayde

The Flaw

That stained us both, remains
As resonant with passion
As with pain
The closer we approached
This sweetness
Dearest, we are again
Embraced by pain.

We must be overcome
By purpose
By the holy light of reason
We could overcome the world if we but tried
The challenge to us both
Is ere we try,
The reward is not as sweet
As that victory
To be won in slow caress
But who but we
Could discipline
The fingers of our ancient, wayward hands,
Who but we
Could find our love in blue
Who but we
Will keep each other true?

For Hayde
10 06 07
Cleveland

World Weary

My time is not as yet so wasted
That I am fatigued to death
But now, I crave the new
The pressure of a discipline I had not felt
Since I was ignorant and dissolute
It is time
It is well past time
To work harder than I have
For many a long year
To delve into the musical heart
Of what I will one day be
I have dallied long enough
It is time to grow, and see
What my will and wisdom
When well-applied
Can make of me.

Upon rededication
10 June 07
over Atlantic

How To Rebegin

From a life of self indulgence in the pain
To greater occupation
To study and the greater good
The life and occupation of my soul.
There is suffering and death, Johannes,
There is indulgence everywhere
In me, and just as much in you
There is regret,
Just as much regret in me
As you.

I do not knwo another way
To make it up to you
My protege, the brief companion
Of my agonies
How do I stay the pain of old regret
With the pathos of my guilt, assuaged
I hated you for weakness
I hated you for love
I hated you for falling in the snare
That was ever ready
For a soul as bright as you.

R.S., an apologia
To Brahms
20 06 07

That Sweet Revenge

That swallowed me alive
Remains, remaining to be vivified by rhyme
She is avid in her threat
To destroy what seeks to thrive
She must not be stayed by me,
Nor by these gentle
Unawakened souls
Who just now open their eyes
Not by me will they be drawn
To sweet enchantment
In its honey-sweet disguise.

For the Tiere
On the Flood

10 06 07


The Doctors And Their Lawyers

Devout and moneyed
With a country house, somewhere on a beach
A swimming pool, a garden,
And a quart of whiskey, neat
They are well and plentifully supplied
They are the reason
Why my shade had died.

10 06 07

My soul

Is pining for my Light
My Life,
My Love,
To stretch those wings I never used
And dare to do,
To strike the chord of wakening
Ascend and be the New.

11 06 07

It Is Done

This little work of days
Begun upon the devil in the Saar
I sense the hope of morning
Dawn within me once again
And that delusion
Ever more to slake
The haunting of the concert halls
And graves
The opening of memory
As my consciousness is waked
I found at last
My Proprium,
Awake.

11 06 07

Oh regret

You live on within my shade
That could not gasp the word
But music in its fanciful and bright
For every phrase of wonder
There is a pang new-felt
How much regret can I have
Since I have died
Were that I never drank, or died
But that cannot be
The past is only changeable in threes
My regret is important
To my little poems of please
Why must my shade
Remember me?

11 06 07

Autumn Becomes the Spring

Oh I am weary, darling
Of the things I cannot be
I am tormented
By the wretched man
I used to be.
I am in the prison of my lately-wakened mind
And memory is never very kind.

11 06 07

Oh Profligate

Can I blame my winnowing
On you entire?
I could lay the death of Schubert at your door
You would have us think
That passion gave to Music something more
Oh, it is a lie
That we long and often told
Our passion and our play
Were quickly sold.

For the Profligate
11 06 07

In the Tide, Upend

I was waylaid
Exhausted at last
I had become again my shade
All is strange
When I wake again
I remembered that my love is far from me
And far enough for us to think
Outside of passion’s play
Our time is fertile
Ripe with memory
To bring us to the keen awareness of the New
To understand the love we built, forever new
Ma passion is exhausted by your sighs
I remember nothing now
But that our passion lies
Please do not be pained
By memory that sees us incomplete
It is proper, and our truth today is meet,
The discovery is of this moment
And if we but forbear
We will see our love re-sweet
Do you not want that kind of love for me
For us,
Is there time enough
As time by tide upends
Is this, my foreign hope
A trifle, a conceit?
Let the music justify our life
Let the power of our spirit
Wipe away our strife.

For WsB
11 06 07






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